evhs senior ball

I had an amazing time. Stephen Lee Jr. <3 Daaahhhling I adore you.

If only a night could last forever... because now I have to study for finals.

I AM SO EXCITED. guilty pleasure <3

you're hot then you're cold

You frustrate the hell out of me. It's almost as if I'm scared to talk to you. It shouldn't be like that.


I think everyone should just make up their mind.

workin' it.

For the past two days I've been going to the library after school to study/do homework. Maybe it will actually help me. I need to do tons of extra credit for history to raise that B+. Why didn't I work harder earlier? =|

OH, by the way,
I am not a fucking mind reader.

I always work too hard towards the wrong things. I think that's what screws me over every single time.

whoa, dream big!

It was a nice day. The usual Saturday morning was spent with Victoria Van; watching Friends, ranting about life, same old same old. In the afternoon I headed to Teresa's house for a family Mother's Day dinner. Maivien, Katie, Teresa, Anthony, and I watched X-Men. I actually really liked it a lot!

The dress I bought came in today. I'm not as in love with it as I was when I first tried one on a few weeks ago, but it's decent. My judgment has been impaired lately.

I want to go check the Sunday secrets so, I guess I'll update another time.

it is not the end

It is not the end. It is not the end. I think we all need to remember that sometimes. Even (especially?) me. I need to work hard as hell for finals. No procrastinating, no half-assing it. I hate that I've developed such terrible study habits over the past two years. It's really kicking me in the ass now. There's always room for change though, right?

Right.

It is not the end. It's hard to remember that sometimes. Looking back, I think I lost track of everything. My friends, my family, my grades, everything. I don't know why. It just happened. Do things like that just happen? What scares me the most is that you don't even realize it's happening when it's happening. It hits you, weeks or months or maybe even years later. That scares the shit out of me. I need to find myself again. Immerse myself.

Four more weeks until summer, baby. Oh yes.

goodbye to you

Hi Friday. You don't know how long I've waited for you.
Okay, it was only about 5 days. But it's great that you're here anyways.

This week went by in a blur. I was reading my blog from Sunday and I couldn't remember having to take a math test at all this week. Everything is happening so quickly. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. On one hand, summer will come sooner and I'll finally be able to relax a little. On the other hand, I realize I only have about a month to raise my grades and study for finals. My two finals that are going to be the hardest are the classes that I have borderline grades in. Wait, make that three. I have an A- in both math and chemistry and a low B+ in history. I'm trying to raise those grades by 3% ish. That will give me a little cushioning before finals. I'm trying, I really am. I wish I were good at this whole school thing.

Embrace life. Don't live in the past. It's okay that I'm forgotten.